“Anyone who thinks that sunshine is pure happiness has never danced in the rain.”
Difficult times in life were often when you learned the most. It is almost, always the necessary path to lead you into something great. It sometimes lead us somewhere our feet has never wandered. As if we are in a foreign land. A battlefield in which we are a complete novice.
It is pure amusement, the first time I set off my feet on the ground after taking a bus ride. What a lovely day! And so, I thought.
I knew I was fine. I had to be fine. I know soon, I will be. The more I say it, the more I’ll believe it, so I’ll get there eventually.
One way to move forward is to leave everything behind. I had to break someone’s heart, when mine already felt shattered into a million pieces. I had to deal with my anxiety. Crying on the bathroom floor with no one to turn to, while all the words we used to say is on repeat. All for days, it was on my mind. All for days, you are on my mind. And I had to say that it’s not about the hurdle we face, but how we overcome it. We learn to fight and go into a battle for what we want. I knew I had to work everything out. Alone.
I was lost. And then you found me.
But suddenly I felt lost in your side. I lost myself in the process of finding you. I was blinded by your light. And I think it was the best way to lose myself.
Your light gets into my brokenness, those tiny cracks you slip in.. but it wasn’t enough. I wanted to shine like you and together, we’ll light up this whole city.
I just realized that it’s okay to be lost sometimes, as long as you have that will to come back, better and stronger. With brighter light.
“If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.” – African proverb
I am ready to go fast. I want to speed up the time so I can meet you halfway to the farthest we can go, together. I am ready to be the best version of myself, if you could just wait for me.
One day, you will see my light and it will be beautiful, so bright, that it will be worth waiting all those months in the dark for.
I’ve learned not to rush things that needed time to grow. And we both know that I need to grow and be mature enough through life situations. It is something we cannot develop over night and I would like to ask for more days before coming back. I hope that I still have something to come back for, that I am still welcome to come home, because you are home to me.
“Fall down seven times, get up eight.” – Japanese proverb
Everything that I need is just right in front of me, I just have to think differently. This love has taught me so much. We didn’t fall in love, because what we have is something I could rise up for.
I had fall down so many times but it didn’t stop me to get up and continue conquering life, and most of all, it motivates my very existence to excel in life because normal is just a setting in a washing machine and I wouldn’t want to be normal. I wanted to go out in my comfort zone and see the other side of things.
“When you get to the end of the rope, tie a knot and hang on.” – American proverb
Just like how we hold on to something we really want. Hold on tight and never let go… but I let you go, didn’t I? And you let me too. Your butterfly is on her metamorphosis stage. Ready to accept change. Changes that will alter both our lives forever.. so please, please be patient with me. It will be worth it, I promise you.
We may be on the end of our rope, but soon, we’ll be tying the knot. Hoping and praying.
🙂 I know we will. You put me into this battle and now, I am ready to take charge, just some things are needed to be furnished.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” – Proverbs 3:5-6
Lastly, this is the best proverb that made me cling to the reality I am in.
Change is good, it is not as scary as it was. Soon I’ll be adapting changes, because for you, I will.
We both know that His plans are better than ours, we may not know what the future holds, but we know who holds it.